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The essence of swearing or making oaths is to try to use something that, though impressive, is irrelevant to the issues at hand to get others to believe you and let you have your way.
Divine Conspiracy 174
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-The OC Josh
The last couple days I've been thinking alot about New Mexico. It changed some people's lives which is awesome. i think for my it refined and strengthened the vision I see God shaping up for my future.
I feel confident in a couple things.
First, I feel like I am called to lead. Although I like to just follow sometimes and do my best from behind, I think this trip really helped cement the fact that I can lead. I can be vocal and lead. I always realized I lead best by example. I figure how can I ask someone to do something if I'm just "supervising"
Three things made New Mexico different for me. First, I was cut off from outside technology(texting and facebook). Second, I was connected to a group of people who worked with you and cared about you. Third, I was constantly ministering to people. Even back at camp, I was trying to help my village.
I've been thinking why do these things have to stop now that I am back in OC. I can utilize texting and facebook to help with the second two. The second seems the most important to me. I do have a small group I love, but I think I need to expand that circle of people I build friendships with. FInally, I want to be deliberate in my actions. In class, at work, with my friends, just on the street.
I'l be honest. I act different at school than I do at church.
But not in the way you're thinking.
At school, I'm the kid everyone knows. Like I have no problem having a fun time and being myself and not caring what others think. I love being that person, but somehow I can't be the same person at church.
At church, I still feel like I have to try and fit in. I don't know where this comes from. But I still feel it. Maybe it comes from being the kid from the "weird" school. Sometimes I wanna go to "regular" school, but then I realize why I LOVE high school.
While I am looking totally looking forward to college, I love the position my life is now and where it can go.
idk just some ramblings
BTW Allihibb's post on this resonated a ton with me.
-The OC Josh
